growing up was difficult for me. my teachers praised my academic ability, but noted i was immature and easily upset. the latter made me a target for harassment; throughout elementary school i was tormented frequently, often getting in trouble as i had aggressive tendencies when provoked. this culminated in january of 2017, when after a particularly bad outburst my parents took me out 2 homeschool me. the damage had still been done, however - i don't trust people and find it extremely difficult 2 maintain connections with those in the real world. the internet serves as my crutch.

i come from a creative family; my mother is an artist and my dad a musician. i have been making shit for as long as i can remember. i'd paint over my toys 2 make them in2 something new, i'd make ambitious projects out of paper, i'd write books and craft stories in my head. i first started taking my work seriously around mid-late 2018, so that's when i consider myself as having "started drawing." my improvement has been slow, but i feel like i've finally gotten 2 a point where my artwork is "decent."

i made my first real "oc" around january-february 2014, around when... sigh... breadwinners began airing. something about that show captivated me as a child, and despite all the questionable aspects of it i loved the characters and made one of my own. i was barely 7 at the time so she was very rough around the edges (robot, sister of one of the main characters, extremely overpowered, able 2 turn invisible so i claimed she was there in every episode of the show, and so on), but she was the first of many characters i have made.

in march of 2016, i was introduced 2 the gaming platform ROBLOX via evantubehd and ethangamertv. its studio engine instantly captivated me, and i would often play around in it, spamming toolbox models and making comically shitty "games." i also discovered the art of roleplaying via games like dawn of the wolves, dying moon, mlp:rim, and neverland lagoon. i would often make ocs in these games; unfortunately, a lot of these are lost either because of save corruption or the games not having save options in the first place. as shitty of a platform as it is (especially nowadays), ROBLOX is one of the only websites that has managed 2 hold my attention for so long.

i'll add more 2 this eventually i just don't feel like typing any more

i use a lot of characters 2 represent differnet facets of myself. it helps me cope with the world. you can click on each name below 2 be taken 2 each sona's TOYHOU.SE page.

ASSYSTYNZE - BRIMSTONE - - SKREECH - SPECTRE - TAUTOLOGY - ZACKARIE - ZOEZOE